There is hope......

In 3 days 2013 will finally come to an end. Ironically it is also the 1 year anniversary of my divorce. Yesterday.... last year, I argued with my then husband who said to me." If you don't finish filing then I will." Through my tears I asked him why.....and the answer I received was, " I might want to kick it with a bitch or two and I don't want to feel guilty about it!" So in my pain, I picked up my mother for moral support, and we took the 40 minute drive up to the court house where I had originally began the process of filing the divorce and gave everything to the clerk. For more irony, I received my official judge signed copy in the mail on his birthday. Ain't that a trip? While I was at home with our four children mourning the end of our 11 year story, he was in Las Vegas living it up on a birthday trip with his mistress. There is so much to say, so much to document. I know my story can be an inspiration to someone out there. I wholeheartedly believe that God's kept me here for a reason. Talking to my mother earlier today about how far I've come from where I was..... I said "God saved me for a reason, 3 times I have faced death at my own hands, and each time He would not let it come to pass. I loved my ex-husband so much, that I could not fathom the thought of facing life alone. But here I am, a whole year later, a whole lot stronger. I am a divorced mother of 4 wonderful children ages 9, 7, 5 and soon to be 3. Through all my heartache my kids have been holding me up. When I cry...they rub my back and bring me water. They sing me songs and draw me pictures. We laugh more than we cry these days. For that I am grateful. My children and I prayed every morning in the car that year, and God gave us way more than we could ask. Above all, he gave us peace. FINALLY!!!

I have so many experiences I would like to share. I know that somewhere there is a woman out there like me. She's looking for answers, comfort, familiarity.....I hope that as I share my life on this blog, at least one somebody can be inspired and can gain hope from my words. Until next time.....be blessed :)