When will it end....

Email after email...It has been 2 years (on the 31st of December) that I have  been divorced, and I am still going through it at the hands of my ex. NOTHING I say gets through. So I decided to just stop talking. I'm in this on my own. Raising these kids is going to be hard, I am going to make a lot of mistakes. The bottom line is that we will get through. I had a nice weekend, the kids are at my moms and come home today. I realized that I stand in my own way a lot. I really tried to talk myself out of everything I ended up doing this weekend. I feel really good that I did not give in though. I don't know what God has in store for me or my kids, but it must be better that what I had. Got a therapy appointment on Friday, I sincerely hope that helps me in the long run. I feel like I have to many people pulling me in so many different directions. But I am stronger than I realize....