I'm experiencing some serious anxiety. I just finished looking through some pictures that sent my heart through a lot of different emotions. I have been telling God some of the things on my heart. Praying that if he sees fit, to either restore the connection or sever it. When I think with more than my heart I feel there is no place for that relationship to develop into anything more than it was. But then I see with my eyes that face, and I remember what it felt like and I am certain that much was not a fabrication. In my fear of looking and feeling inadequate, I maintain my silence and just pray. Asking God that if it's not for me, remove it from my heart. I am trying to allow God's will and not mine. I am reminded that sometimes no answer...Is an answer, and that answer is no. I'll let the tears fall tonight, and hope for peace in the morning.
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