Her

Dinner was great, kids are finishing up. I decided to wait until after our meal for the movie. Half way in I'll break out the air popper and pop some popcorn. Considering the long nap I had this morning I will probably be up quite late. My thoughts have been scattered as usual, reminding me to pray more in depth about that. I'm finishing up my book i am reading on being single and christian. It has brought quite a few things to the forefront of my sight. Mistakes, I have made and continue to make in relationships with the opposite sex. Identifying where those mistakes originate and taking the correct steps to ensure it does not continue to happen. I am still on the fence about whether or not I want to get married again. Some days it seems like a good idea, others days I have to realize what I would be subjecting myself to. I will be under the direction of another man, I will have to cook for, clean for, care for, love, motivate, nurture, trust, forgive, another "Man". Am I ready for all of that. I am a broken woman on the road to recovery, and marriage is a decision I can not afford to take lightly. While I don't expect a perfect male, I do expect someone who is in touch with themselves spiritually and emotionally. Not afraid to give of himself and express himself in love. Until then I lean on the Lord. In hopes that one day he may bless my life with the presence of someone who will except me as God created me. Love me, laugh with me, care for, protect, and provide for me.....