Nothing I'm doing is working. I keep thinking I've got it all figured it and I don't. I don't know who I am, and who I think I am I don't like. I'm asking God to show me the real me. I'm afraid to see her though. I'm so disappointed by the things and people I try so hard to hold on to. Everything I think I know, I need to let go of immediately. Everyone I think I love I need to let go of. All that makes Cyndi, Cyndi in my eyes needs to be erased. This never-ending cycle of bad relationships and anger. Trying to be who I think I should be. I'm uncomfortable in my own skin. I wake up every day and begin to tear myself apart. I'm not losing weight fast enough. My hair, my skin, my teeth, my feet....I find every reason I'm not good enough. Time to clean the slate, start over. Instead of pouring out my love on others, I need to give some to me...
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