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I just keep sinking lower and lower. I'm really trying to fight this one off. It's crazy how emotions sway so fast. I actually shook it off for a good minute this evening. Enough to cook and enjoy a nice dinner with a glass of wine and watch a romantic comedy. Good grief, I've got to get out of this. I really just want to ball out of control. I fought of the tears a lot today. Now i figure, what the heck.....I'm alone, so what better time. Don't have to save face in front of the kids now. They aren't watching. MAN!! This sucks so terribly. I read my book, I read my bible, I've prayed and talked to God. I just feel so insignificant at this precise moment. I have had a habit sense a child of unconsciously telling myself no one cares for me, and that I don't matter. I was in my 20's when I realized I do this, and quite often. So I made an effort to stop and tell myself the opposite. It worked, but as of recently, I have noticed I started all over again. It's crazy the subtle ways the enemy will use to attack you. Geez!! If anyone reads this blog, and I don't know if anyone really does....Pray for me please. I'm to blessed to be this down.......I've spent far to many years crying and depressed to stop being optimistic now. Maybe I should try and get some sleep. I think that's a good idea. Peace to you, and blessings. Good Night