Night Cap

Just picked up the kids from their weekend with "Dad". I was in a bit of a mood, like I explained a little while ago. He's still trying to convince me that he has changed. Not buying it. Not one bit. Even if he has.....new rule....no remixes....no more chances. There's not a day that goes by that I am not reminded of one thing or another I suffered at his hands. He even asked me to the movies......no dates! He is still relying on my INSANE capacity for forgiveness, and really thinks that one day I'll give it another shot. No thanks! God has someone out there for me and I seriously doubt it's him. After 11 years of my life, my dues are paid and I owe him nothing. The only way to break the cycle of pain is to move on. Much like the only way to break the cycle of addiction is to quit. I am 34 years old, and at this point in my life I am learning so much. I feel like a sponge sometimes. I enjoy being a woman. I love being a mom, and a good friend. I like helping people. I'm loving my 30's far more than I liked my 20's, but maybe that's because I spent all those years with a man that did not want, appreciate, or care about me. NEVER try to force someone to know your worth. They either do or they don't. You can not force anyone to love you, or respect you. Most importantly, believe what people show you with their actions, and NOT what they say.