I've recovered

I have been really sick over the past week and my youngest has as well. Today I was able to get up and do a lot that I have not felt up to doing for a while. During my sick spell I managed to eat a lot of junk food. I was feeling pretty down and cookies and candy bars was the only thing I wanted. So now I have gotten even that much further from my weight goal. So I decided today, after taking down 3 packs of cookies that I wanted to try again with the juice fasting. The first time I did so I was able to get through 2.5 days with only homemade juice and water. My initial goal is to go 3 full days. This is going to be pretty hard for me. I read somewhere that a juice fast is a great way to detox jump start healthy eating. Ultimately I'd like to change my portion sizes and begin cooking healthy. I plan to change my children's eating habits as well. The next few days I hope to learn more about eating and cooking healthier versions of my meals. We shall see how it goes. I have a photo of myself that I keep in my phone as motivation. When I originally had my big weight loss, I went from 220 lbs to 160 almost over night. I was in such emotional despair that I could not bring myself to eat. So I worked, 12 hours a day, barely ate and consumed a bottle of wine a night. A lot of the people that I worked with thought I was on drugs. But I wasn't, I was heartbroken. Now I am happier, and I eat.....BOY do I eat. I cook pretty much every night. I cook as healthy as I know how to. I have been toying with the thought of joining a gym for a month or so as well. I'm not sure yet if I will though. Okay, time for some well deserved "ME" time. Be blessed