I have been feeling overwhelmed. Yesterday I didn't know what to do with myself, I got up early and went for a walk in the park hoping it would allow me to gather my thoughts. I prayed for myself, my children, my family and friends. I heard a saying a while back that goes, "How can you be mad at God for not closing a chapter in your life if you keep opening the book." With that thought I decided to cut off all communication with my ex-husband. I was hoping we could be cordial for the children's sake. But the interaction has turned into something that made me scared. He is behaving like he is obsessed. I can not shoulder his regret any longer. Nothing I say is going to help or make him move on. So I have decided that it would be best for me to just separate myself from the situation all together. Cut it completely off! I have not interfered with his communication with the children. How ever I HAVE blocked him from calling and texting me. Some of the things he was saying was causing me great distress. I have to realize that I am not his savior, Jesus is. That I must focus on creating the best life I can for myself and my children. Right now I am totally reliant on Jesus to get me through. I have no income, I have plenty bills that need to be paid...BUT I also have faith!!! It may not be a big as some, but there is an inner calm inside that says don't fear, I will bring you out. Tomorrow I have a test for a job with the Sheriff's Dept. It is an office position. The pay is great and I suspect so is the job security. God won't bring you to something for know reason. I know He knows what I need. So I am believing for something great, something greater than I can imagine. I am holding on.
Be blessed!
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