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My mood has seriously taken a nose dive. I just finished ironing out all the blocks for my quilt, and now I have to clean the kitchen. I had some black thread around here but I can't find it. I wanted to sew my quilt top this evening, but unless I find the thread I wont be able to. I don't know what to do with myself. I am going to clean up now. This sucks! In all honesty I got to thinking to much. Heart jumps from one extreme to the next. I feel bad because I am missing someone special to me and I can't, or should I say won't allow myself to tell him so. I decided that after I sent my last message earlier this week and allowed me heart to beat in front this man, that I would not let my longing get the best of me. There are other things that are bothering me right now, but they are just the icing on the cake. I want to cry, but what good are tears? I want what God has for me, and I imagine it must be way better than any of my thoughts can conceive. I'll continue to let Him shape and mold me into the woman I should be, for the man he has created for me. Until such a time that I may be presented to him. Nothing before it's time can be good. God brought me out one failed marriage, and I shudder at the thought of going into another failed relationship because I am lonely or sad. So, I won't let my feelings show. I'll just keep on pushing......