Okie dokie, in bed about to read my book. Feeling a little angry and blue. I got my homework done, praise the Lord. My mind is all over the place though. I just started this new medicine and it's going to take 5 more weeks to tell if it's working or not. Until then I need to calm my thoughts. I'm missing that closeness that was snatched from me. Geeze Louise, I've been rambling quite a bit about this dude. Man.....okay I've got to shake this. I get so fixated sometimes. I have now figured out what to pray for. Okay I'm not into this anymore. I was all amp'd about writing this but now...not anymore. I feel off track. Like I'm missing something right in front of me. I've been trying to be more involved with the kids, and I did pretty good this weekend despite my being upset about the conference. I did mini makeovers with the kids and they are feeling pretty darn good about themselves. Painted fingernails and all. I know how easily I can get distracted, and God knows to. I'm really trying to get the most out of where I'm at in my life right now. Enjoy not having to give my all to someone. I find it hard enough to give my all to the kids. I'm struggling with discipline, and meddling them motivated for school. It's not just me I know, the absent parent plays a role....I don't know. I take one day at a time. This days drawing to a close, so I guess that's it.
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