I thought I deleted all the pictures.....I didnt :(

Going through my laptop looking for specific photo's. I happened to come across all the pictures from this summer, ALL the pictures! I can't even lie, I looked at every single photo!My mind went from one extreme to the next. From intense love to pain to disgust. My goodness, what the heck is wrong with me? I was having a pretty darn decent day until.....that. I am straight up loony tunes, cause I want to say kind words to this man. What on earth would make me want to do such after everything that has happened? I am a big ol' bucket of love. I really care and I hate having to suppress that because someone else isn't as blessed as I am to be able to feel and express themselves. Why be fearful? Wait....rejection that's why. Now I remember. If I am going to share loving words or emotions, I need to do so without expecting anything in return. That is what real love is.....I'll give it some thought.