back on the roller coaster

Here I go....emotionally tore up. I feel like a fool as usual. I am a woman who does not want to regret not saying something that was on my heart to say. Who wants to give love where there is none. I want to fill voids and mend hearts. As I sit here I wonder if I am stepping on God's toes. Am I trying to be more that I was created to be. Am I living outside my purpose? I don't know. What I do know that my big fat heart keeps getting me into situations that makes me feel like I wish I did not have one. Wish that I could be as cold to those who are cold to me. To ignore and overlook...To distance myself from feeling even the slightest emotion. Some people say, "You should never allow someones cruelty make you change who you are." But I believe that the ones who say that are the ones that intend to prey on the kindness of those of us who are still capable of showing they care....Just a thought.