Mercy!!!!

Top of the morning. I had to get my butt up and write this one on the computer. SOOOOO Last night all heck broke loose. I had to sit my children down and tell my children that they probably wont see or hear from their father for a while. SO this fool, had the nerve to tell me that the only reason I am mad is because I still want to be with him and I frustrated because I cant do so without looking bad. WTH!!!! Okay so I feel NOTHING because you barely call the kids, I feel NOTHING, that you wont lift a finger to help me provide for them, and I REALLY CANT be mad that you have not taken them off my hands in going on two months now. I am besides myself with anger. Some nerve this man has!! Narcissistic much, I'd say that's affirmative. Why would I want a man that is not taking care of his responsibility?? All that love and devotion that I DID feel once before has long since left. I have absolutely no desire to be with this man and the thought of him touching me makes me want to vomit!! So I am officially DONE, I give up. I'm not pressing the issue of being a better father to the children anymore. It is what it is at this point. I am going to do the best I can to raise responsible children. If I am not blessed to remarry by the time my son is around 13, I will be putting some serious thought into sending him to live with my brother so that he can become the best man he can be. This is by far not the end for my children and I. I am laughing so hard right now. The devil is really using this fool to shake me up, but I shall not be moved!! God said help folks, but He never said to let them take advantage of you. I'm going to go lay back down before church, I have a lot to do today. Glory to God, my children and I will be okay. Thank You Jesus for being a husband to me in my season of one and a father to my children. I think I need to find activities for them to get involved in. I am going to look into girl scouts and some other programs. Be blessed!!