Super Bowl Sunday!!!

Good Evening,

I find myself in bed tonight with a glass of wine. From about 3:30 until now all I have wanted to do is cry. Church was AWESOME this afternoon!! I learned a lot. After church I came home to change and then the kids and I went back up to the church to watch the super bowl with our church family. The whole idea was to be able to meet some new people and be somewhere the kids could play with other children. Also to get out of the house for once. For starters when we arrived, my son had a melt down because I allowed his sisters to get a soda and not him. I don't allow soda in my home, so it was a one time thing for them. I ended up having a battle of the will's with him in the ladies room. We sat down to eat our food and he wanted to go to sleep. After I finished my nachos I took him to the row of chairs and he laid on my jacket and was knocked out. While watching the game I began to notice all the families. Granted they all have their own issues, but still they were together....so that brought me down. I prayed for God to forgive me for being bitter and to comfort my lonely heart. I was okay after that for a while. We stayed for the whole game and then got in the car to begin our 15 minute ride home. All the way home my mind kept reminding me I was coming home to an empty bed, so I sunk lower. When we finally made it home, my oldest daughter reminded me that her and my son had not taken their medicine today. They are both being treated for ring worm of the scalp. In the beginning my son had no problems taking his medicine. Ever since he and I have been having it out (battle of the wills) he's taken every chance he gets to disagree with me. So I got a piece of candy, filled the oral syringe with his dose and proceeded to try and give him his meds. I even had his sisters cheer for him. He wasn't having it!!! I was so frustrated with his stubbornness that I began to tear up. I put my head down for a minute, but I'm sure the kids knew I was at the end of my rope. I prayed and then shook it off, and proceeded to give him his medicine. He took it, we clapped and I got him dressed for bed. I read my bible and now I am here......(Kids dad just called my cell.....boy is the devil busy) Anyhoo....I am really trying to become the woman the Lord wants me to be. Sometimes I feel like I am over thinking things, that the relationship is not as complicated as I think it is. I'm at a place in my life where I sincerely feel like I am being told to "be still". Like the Lord is about to move mountains in my life....do some serious work. To Him be the glory for all He does. I go on my interview in 3 days. I honestly feel to my core that He wants to bless me with this job. I will do my best, and I KNOW He will do the rest. That was my day in a nut shell folks. Going to read one of the last two chapters in my book. I have been looking on amazon for a new book, and I found quite a few. I will probably order one tomorrow. God bless.....